I know that not everything is meant to be understood, when it is happening, or even after it has happened. Sometimes the lessons provided are to just be that...lessons.
i have questions though, and VALID ones, cause I just don't understand!
What did I do in my past life that I am not able to receive love that I give...IN THIS LIFE?
Why is my love so hard to accept and live in?
Why do i struggle to find that one person to love me as I love them?
Why do I get lied to? Used?
Played? CONSTANTLY??????
Like why is SO DAMN HARD to line up love, FOR ME???
How can someone who claims they KNOW you and understand you, constantly keep hurting you, and keep claiming that they love you? To turn around and shoe the EXACT OPPOSITE of what they are professing.
Why is it that I am the only one able to comprehend how to make shit work?
Why am I the only one to properly execute communication skills?
WHY TF DO I HAVE TO KEEP TEACHING MUTHAFUCKAS how to properly love ME, as if a lesson plan and instruction manual come with being with me?
WHY am I so HARD to LOVE?????