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Wednesday, August 11, 2021

Honesty vs. Pride


Sometimes, your first mind can stop you from doing something crazy, enabling your second to coherce a conspiracy. Operating solely on a chance, alone, praying against the odds for the undone. Terrified by things I've said, and hung on things we've shared, I'm replaying images of us, wanting desperately to move steadily ahead. Stuck on stupid, high on love, being fed by passion, your life...my drug. Back and forth, through ups and downs, slow at pushing issues, moving forward, towards higher ground. Instances rushed, passing secrets, sharing in sin, keeping my mind from settling, feeling like a a washed up has been. Seasons changing, with mindsets, too, having setbacks and troubles, wanting desperately to share them with you. Infatuated and curious, living only on pride, it's easy to cover what's being harbored inside. Though pain can be shared, and spite will be brought, my love overpowers, any one negative thought. Borderline psycho, playing sane, never really legit, now is the time to stand tall, to be more than adequite. I ride forever, my commitment, an oath flying high for all to see, with nowhere really to go, but much to freely see. With time flying by dancing within dreams and all that shit, systematically speaking, becoming a single fused heartbeat, none to quietly to speak. It's inevitable to hide it, to act on or falsely claim, that our love hasn't been anything, but to you a human game. WE are one in the very same, though I am more mature, and able to accept the truth that you cannot withstand. You and I, we are the same, single fucked up individual, looking to find love, it's true. You are my soulmate that I'll never have, but that I will forever claim.