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Wednesday, August 11, 2021

Fears

Running from your shadow

Hiding out from hard times

Deceived by the ones you most love

Often misused and temptingly tried. 


Listening to the cries

withering in the pain

Exhausted from all the running, 

of dodging bullets, and playing games.


The fear of failure

of falling behind

of being too careful

and half ass blind.

Listening intently to subjects unclear

remaining focused on facts

while burrowing in your past. 

You suddenly realize you're drawing steadily closer

to the demons from your past. 


Fear, no doubt, runs through us all,

as chilled as winter ice, 

A numbing sensation of chiller blasts

unmounted fails, 

but still very necessary variant of life. 


The fear of loving,

of giving a single person your all, 

of watching your back

trying desperately to not drop the ball. 


Times of joy,

darkened immediately with hate, 

blackened by greed,

smeared with lust

and mixed with pain

Changes one's perception of time, 

giving no real end date. 


A sign of weakness

A seal of doom

Living in fear, 

As one draws closer to you 

Living bravely with this pain

the cause and effect,

A purpose without much gain. 


Running from your heart

Hiding from your flaws

Those are the prominent signs, 

and the looks begin to tell it all. 


A condemning feeling

what fear often is

A void with no pit,

one to live with but never see. 


Can you actually hear me? 

DO you understand?

These words I am speaking to you

Human to human? 


It's felt when you love,

absent when you lose

brought to test your inner strength

Not a feeling one would aim to chose.


The fear in faults

the painstaking blame

the brutality of sorrow

the destruction of doubt and shame.


Fear. A four letter word. 

A monster in disguise

An emotion based on.....noting...but still relevant and present one in the same. 


Fear is nothing but a an ideal of self-doubt, 

which stems from the uncertainties cast upon oneself from the unfortunate thoughts of others. 

Fear caters to merely the convictions of shame, pity, sorrow, grief, obsessions, hate, and sometimes anger. 

Through fear breeds love, and from love blooms mercy. Those who grant mercy truly understand the act of love hidden beneath fear.