When you realize that your life is going in the opposite direction of what you wanted it to go in, you start to question some of the decisions you have made, and what direction your life is going.
For the longest time, I have always wanted to be the one to love on someone that was for ME. I had that. It didn't work. I tried so hard to be the best version of myself for them, and it didn't go the way either one of us wanted to.
For the later part of two years, I have been rebuilding myself, and understanding what life is like throughout this journey, to not only heal, but love and LIVE.
I didn't realize just how much I still felt for one person. I can admit that that love was stronger than I thought. However, when faced with the harsh truth and reality that it's never going to be the same, and will never be what I crave, I'm ready to walk away for good. No more holds. No more hope in the situation. No more drama. No more chaos. No more disappointment.
Looking for someone to complete me, is easier said than done. I am not the baddest female on earth, nor am I the sexiest, flyest, or richest. But I am a damn good woman with a phenomenal heart, dope as vibe, and the biggest expectations from life. For me, those qualities are more important than what can be provided for me, and what can be given. For ME, its about quality, not quantity.
When faced with harsh truths, its takes a minute for me to bounce back. I am a sucker for all things love. I am a sucker for all things surrounding the definition of love.
Saying goodbye to yesterday's news, feelings, memories...is difficult, for some. Seems to be easier for others. Overall, it's simply necessary. Progression is about experiencing, learning, understanding, applying, and teaching. Collectively, being able to do all of them successfully is a challenge in itself. But it's not impossible.