Hey Guys!
I hope this finds you all in good spirits and having many of blessings!
I have a question fr yall? Is anyone else battling depression right now? Is anyone else just not feeling it, period, point blank. No motivation to do anything?
I often try to rationalize, or simply even just put into perspective, why I am going through what I am going through. Why is everything bad thrown at me, to figure out how to get through. Why do i have to smile, and DEAL? Why do I have to be the realistic one? Why am I the one who has to endure the responsibilities, and everyone else is allowed to go off and be free to do whatever they please, whenever they so choose to do so? Why am I the one who has to defend myself when all I want o do is disappear!?
It is so much easier not to care, not to put forth effort, or to even just let sit go. It is so much easier to not give energy, when it is required.
I'm so tired of yelling, screaming, crying, stressing, and I'm completely over feeling trapped in this world. Like seriously. HELP!!!!!!!!!!
I am so tired of being the one EVERYONE relies on to think for, speak for, and do for them but when the shoe is on the other foot, not even a phone call, well check, or inkling of concern floats my way, unless something is required of me, or from me. I'm tired of being the go to person for advice. I'm tired of being the STRONG parent. I'm tired of being the ONLY one who gives a flying rats ass about shit.....and unhappy because I'm the one who gives the MOST< to get very little, if ANYTHING, in return.
This shit is not healthy, and I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of everything. I'm TIRED.