I'd be clueless of what to say
Would i begin with my troubles?
How true to myself would I stay?
If I wrote a note to God.
If I wrote a note to God,
should i mention the things of my past,
things that he should already see,
should have already known?
May I ask if it's alright to feel this way?
To feel like a little girl,
entrapped in a life she did not ask for!
Undervalued, unappreciated, and steadily pushed away...
If I wrote a note to God.
Going through the things that I have,
the unimaginable, unforeseen, and unrealistic,
constantly surrounded by shadows of the unhappy,
the wails of the patronized,
the pain of the forgotten...bathed in the shallow pool of hate;
If I wrote a note to God,
would he continuously make me wait?
If I wrote a note to God
would't it be purely in vain?
Aren't I supposed to call upon his name?
He, the the ever Almighty,
whom clears all suffering and pain!
Though, when I call,,
its nothing to give but disparity and shame!
If I wrote a note to God
If I wrote him this note,
unleashing my burdens and fears,
letting go of my inner inhibitions and tears
What will it uncover?
Will it solve anything, starting with the most recent years?
Will it erase are the heartache or the disappointment
I feel each day
the nagging of forever being inhibited
and a lonely outcast?
If i wrote a note to God
I'd ask him straight out,
"Why wasn't my soul saved at birth?"
"Why was I made to survive this hell of Earth,
since the day my host gave birth?"
If I chose to finally express everything,
let everything out,
he'd be speechless because of my outrageously loud doubts.
It's really no laughing matter,
I'm speaking truth upon facts,
My God would be so ashamed of the Faith that I lack.
All I'm asking for,
is renewed strength and a different route.
Life has it's problems,
has it's burdens to bear
But the simple revelation and realization is...
He said He'd ALWAYS be there.
If I wrote a note to God
He'd already know how far I've come
He's say, "Daughter, I've watched you battle this out,
I've heard your cries, and felt your pain.
I've healed you from your losses, and steered you from your troubles,
now it's time to accept my love, and flourish beyond this lifetime."
He'd be extremely proud
of the courage i took for me to speak,
and understand that to him, this warrior is far from weak.
If I wrote a note to God,
it would be spoken from the heart,
A letter of growth and maturity,
one to hold close to his heart.
For I am his Angel,
one to be cherished, valued, and respected.
I am a guardian upon Earth,
Forever blessed, beyond protected, and most certainly kept,
If I wrote a note to God,
He'd tell me simply
Please don't stop, my dear,
I'm proud of all your hard work.
Don't give up, don't you dare stop,
you're important to my design,
Keep going until you reach the TOP!
If I wrote a note to God,
I'd thank him for all that he's done,
all that he's gotten me, and for as far as I've come,
My letter to Him, would be a simple note.
One of graciousness, and gratitude
love, honor and respect.
It's because of his Love,
I'm forever in his debt.
If I wrote a note ton God.
Cali