Trigger Warning!!!!!!!!! This is kind of just a rant post! You are more than welcome to read, comment, share, like...whatever. I just need to get this off of my chest!
Why is it so hard to find a group of friends that genuinely give a fuck about you, your well being, your mental head space, and your success, without wanting anything from you, or expecting some type compensation, in return?
Why is it that his world is in such a goddamn need to keep TAKING from other people, regardless if they mean to or not? Why is it that when ANYONE, who is not built FORD fuckin' tough, shows a little bit of their inner softness, or weakness, they become prey to backlash, tough love, ridicule, or what the fuck ever you want to call it.
I am not saying that everyone is the same. No. That shit is very much apparent. That shit is VERY CLEAR, that you have bulldogs, bullies, assholes, compassionates, emapathists, REAL friends, free loaders, leeches, scammers, cons, wanna be's......it's all kinds of people out there.
No, my main focus is why are those that PRETEND or HIDE that they are strong, but really weak (like me) are constantly preyed on, used, taken advantage of, and then when we've had enough, or backed into a corner, or bullied, or hurt...we are then fake, phony, intimidated, jealous, no good, unreliable, etc? Why is it when we'e had enough then we become the ones that are not understood, or too goddamn emotional, or to weak minded and not useful, or not whatever society has drawn us up to be? I really don't understand how exactly I am supposed to function day to day, when I really don't TRUST anybody, and the one's I'm supposed to trust, I can't or don't because secretly, I mean nothing to them, or I'm not good enough, or I'm to weak, or i can't do this or incapable of doing that...because i show my emotions.
Where are the genuine people at? Where are the real pushers, the ones who actually GIVE A FUCK!!!!! Where are the ones who genuinely want you to succeed, and stay up with you The ones ready to beat the dirt with you? The ones ready to go the extra mile with you? The ones you can trust with your life, no matter what decision you make? Where ARE THEY????????
I have spent all my life, letting people use me for their benefit, or their sole purpose, and then be discarded after they've finished