Hey Guys!
I know it's been a minute! I am truly sorry, for the silence!
My 2023 has been absolutely, and ultimately crazy this far!I know I haven't posted since February, but it seems like since then, my life just took off. Definitely not mad at it, but whewwwwwww, it's taken me for a ride.
As always, I'm sharing with you guys because just as this is a safe, open, and transparent place for me to vent to yall, someone here may take away and relate to, or agree with something here.
I appreciate everyone who even takes the time out to even stop and read any of my work. I appreciate the new freiends, or family. And I appreciate anyone who can remotely relate to this page.
Okay, so since February, again, my life has been ANYTHING but normal! I've celebrated with joy, cried through unannounced and surprising tears, my frustration levels have been enticingly through the roof, my attention span is on the rocks, I've become more crafty (again) and my bullshit radar has been broken at least twice. I've gained some new friends, lost those who couldn't hack it as 'friends', chewed some people out, and gained wonderful new, exciting....individuals! .......Haha, let me explain!
So....I now have a 5 year old (Syncere) kindergartener (As of June 17th!!!) and a three year old Kenlee) as of, last Friday! Soon, she will be entering into school as a TK (head-start) and I will be free of both of my hellions come this August! Nic (Syncere) got accepted in KIPP< a wonderfully accredited Public Charter School based here in Los Angeles! (Almost like a Gifted Program but bigger scaled, and strategically placed around the Greater Los Angeles are! Just so happens that my sons campus is right behind my old high school! (Can you say convenience!!!!)
Any-who, Kenlee will attend the school her big brother is Graduating from!!! (I cannot believe i get to attend my child's first graduation!!! I'm about to turn that mutha OUT!!!!!! LO with so much love and support! My babies are growing up so much and I am here for the positive and respectful growth. Outside of them both succeeding scholastically (they get it from their mother :), they have both grown and experienced so much in the almost 9 months we have been here, in LA. (I KNOW! I cannot believe it's been 9 months either) Time really does fly when you are living life, instead of trying to survive it.
I can honestly say being home and living my new life, my best life, these last 9 months have been the most tremendously raw real and fanatical times of my life.
Focusing on myself, and being present in the moment have been my main focuses. In this time of self healing and fresh love, I have also found the time to be intentional with rekindling old flames, understanding new paths, maneuvering and getting my feet under me financially, and most importantly, creating and setting boundaries for those that choose to disrespect me, and my personal views, feelings, and emotions.
SO.....truth moment: I am not as strong as I look, or feel. And, that's 100% okay. I recognize that not everyone can be strong, all the time. It's okay, to not be okay. There is no time line, or limit to grief. With me losing both my grandfather and mother, I honestly don't want to settle into being sad and down all the time, nor do I want to keep reliving the hurt, the way that I have been. SO I'm making them proud by being productive and moving into new territory.
Overall I am in a better place than I was. I am living. I am working. I am being me. I Thank God that I am able to keep doing what I do and giving to others as they need it.
Peace love and blessings to ALL
Until next time!
_Cali